Day 11: A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

Dear Grandpa,

I miss you so much. It's so surprising to me that you've been gone 6 years ago. I miss you so terribly and it drives me crazy sometimes to think of you, and then to realize you're gone. We were so close, and I used to talk to you about everything. I valued your advice and your approval over anyone elses, and I wish so badly you were here now. Those last few months were terrifying to me. I had never seen anyone go down hill so fast, especially not you. You were so strong, so loving, so compassionate about life, but when those last months came it's like you were a completely different person. I constantly feel bad, even though I know it's not my fault what happened, but I feel bad all the time because once you started getting that way I just backed off. I didn't hardly talk to you, I barley hugged you or showed you any affection because I was afraid of hurting you, or me too I guess. And for years I've felt terrible, felt that I had something to do with your quick decline in health, because I seemed to shun you out of my life. Anyways, I wish you were here now to give your approval on the different aspects of my life. My choice in clothes, my dance, colleges, classes, my boyfriend. Hah, I'm almost 100% sure you wouldn't approve of JD, or maybe you would've surprised me and approved of him afterall. Idk he comes on strong but after a while I think as long as he treated me right and I was happy (which I am) you would come to love him like I do. I wish you were still here to see me grow into the woman I'm becoming, and the mother and wife I'm yet to be, but (like natty said as well) I know for a fact that you're in heaven with God looking down on me and smiling. I see it everytime I look at our family. We all have those cheeks you know. haha. But I love you papa, and most of all I wish you were still here for me to tell you that. I love you and I always will. You will always have a special place in my heart papa, and I'll always be your sweetheart.
Love Always,
Your Grandaughter Mary Elizabeth

PS- I still have that frog you gave me that plays that stupid sweetheart song that you got me for Valentine's Day. and I still cry everytime I turn it on. :) I miss you. See you soon.