A Year of New Beginnings.

I'm very much looking forward to this year ending. It's been a rough year all over for everyone I know.

I've always loved New Years. It marks the celebration of one year ending and another beginning; and with that new opportunities to start again. We all make resoulutions to do something more, not do other things at all, and to lose weight. haha. And yet even though many of these fall through, just as they always do, we still can't help but think things will change with each coming new year. Well this is my year folks. I'm not making a huge long list of things I know I'll never get done, but I am making some changes in my life, and I'm sticking to them this year. So, even though it's a few days early, here's my list.

2011's New Beginnings:

• Read the Word more- not promising to read the whole thing in a year, just getting into it more than I usually do.
• Take pictures of memorible events-all the little things in life that we all cherish. I want to capture them again.
• Write more-again not an everyday thing, but more often than when I get angry once every couple of months.
• Work out- Okay I'm starting this one as an everyday thing. Even if it's just walking once around the block or doing some situps on the floor, I desperatley need to get back in shape.
• Find more time for myself- relaxing, enjoying a nice shower or bath, pamper myself, do some reading, knit more. Calming type things.

For now these are the ones I'm aiming for. Then again, it's after midnight and I'm exhausted. I'm sure I'll think of some more later...

Rights of a girlfriend?

*sigh*

Do I have a right to be mad?
That for weeks we have planned to have a nice date to ourselves and now on a spur of the moment win it gets reschedualed for a football game? That this happens to be a special occasion that I was looking forward to because we haven't had much of a date in a while? That not only is it because we haven't been out in a while, but because this date happens to be the day that we got together 3 years ago?

Do I have a right to be hurt?
Hurt because no matter how much I try to be a good girlfriend and say all the nice romantic things, and deal with the fact that he's not much of a romantic it still comes out to much of nothing. Hurt because after 3 years of having the same man in my life, and being so important to me that I give up on little things that I wanted, so that he could be happy and yet I get pushed to the side? Hurt because no matter how much he says he wants to marry me and that I'm more important to him that he still pushes me and our plans off to do something he wants to do?

Hurt and Angry because I feel about as important as a teddy bear in a box in the attic right now.

But then again maybe I'm being unreasonable. Then again if the truth hurts, well it's not my problem.