Dear Better Person in Me,
I wish I could be you in so many ways. Don't get me wrong I'm not upset with who I am, but I long to be so much better. To have more patience and to know what to do when people ask me for advice. You are such a good Godly christian woman, with a great head on your shoulders always knowing what to do or say, and even when you don't, you know just who to turn to who can give you an answer. You are such a loving person, wild at heart but tame with passion. Your motherly instinct amazes me whenever I catch a glimpse of you. You are so caring about everyone, even total strangers. I wish I was more like you and could be you all of the time instead of small moments. I'm on the track to being better, I just need time to get there. I know I can do it.
Love,
Mary.
7.28.2010
Day 17: Someone from your childhood
Dear Barney,
You are driving me insane. How do you appeal to little kids so much? I remember watching you as a child and loving you on tv and wanting to be a part of your backyard gang, and now as I watch my nephew he loves you as well. It's driving me insane, your repetitive songs and lyrics; and yet, there is such a sense of comfort knowing that you never cussed or said a bad thing to anyone and that you always taught me and now my nephew things we need to know and how to be a friend. Thanks for being such a good influence on such a negative world. I hope you're still around when I have kids, I want them to see what a good thing you are. Keep doing what you do. You're the most annoyingly awesome thing I think I've ever seen.
Love,
Mary
You are driving me insane. How do you appeal to little kids so much? I remember watching you as a child and loving you on tv and wanting to be a part of your backyard gang, and now as I watch my nephew he loves you as well. It's driving me insane, your repetitive songs and lyrics; and yet, there is such a sense of comfort knowing that you never cussed or said a bad thing to anyone and that you always taught me and now my nephew things we need to know and how to be a friend. Thanks for being such a good influence on such a negative world. I hope you're still around when I have kids, I want them to see what a good thing you are. Keep doing what you do. You're the most annoyingly awesome thing I think I've ever seen.
Love,
Mary
7.17.2010
Day 11: A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Dear Grandpa,
I miss you so much. It's so surprising to me that you've been gone 6 years ago. I miss you so terribly and it drives me crazy sometimes to think of you, and then to realize you're gone. We were so close, and I used to talk to you about everything. I valued your advice and your approval over anyone elses, and I wish so badly you were here now. Those last few months were terrifying to me. I had never seen anyone go down hill so fast, especially not you. You were so strong, so loving, so compassionate about life, but when those last months came it's like you were a completely different person. I constantly feel bad, even though I know it's not my fault what happened, but I feel bad all the time because once you started getting that way I just backed off. I didn't hardly talk to you, I barley hugged you or showed you any affection because I was afraid of hurting you, or me too I guess. And for years I've felt terrible, felt that I had something to do with your quick decline in health, because I seemed to shun you out of my life. Anyways, I wish you were here now to give your approval on the different aspects of my life. My choice in clothes, my dance, colleges, classes, my boyfriend. Hah, I'm almost 100% sure you wouldn't approve of JD, or maybe you would've surprised me and approved of him afterall. Idk he comes on strong but after a while I think as long as he treated me right and I was happy (which I am) you would come to love him like I do. I wish you were still here to see me grow into the woman I'm becoming, and the mother and wife I'm yet to be, but (like natty said as well) I know for a fact that you're in heaven with God looking down on me and smiling. I see it everytime I look at our family. We all have those cheeks you know. haha. But I love you papa, and most of all I wish you were still here for me to tell you that. I love you and I always will. You will always have a special place in my heart papa, and I'll always be your sweetheart.
Love Always,
Your Grandaughter Mary Elizabeth
PS- I still have that frog you gave me that plays that stupid sweetheart song that you got me for Valentine's Day. and I still cry everytime I turn it on. :) I miss you. See you soon.
I miss you so much. It's so surprising to me that you've been gone 6 years ago. I miss you so terribly and it drives me crazy sometimes to think of you, and then to realize you're gone. We were so close, and I used to talk to you about everything. I valued your advice and your approval over anyone elses, and I wish so badly you were here now. Those last few months were terrifying to me. I had never seen anyone go down hill so fast, especially not you. You were so strong, so loving, so compassionate about life, but when those last months came it's like you were a completely different person. I constantly feel bad, even though I know it's not my fault what happened, but I feel bad all the time because once you started getting that way I just backed off. I didn't hardly talk to you, I barley hugged you or showed you any affection because I was afraid of hurting you, or me too I guess. And for years I've felt terrible, felt that I had something to do with your quick decline in health, because I seemed to shun you out of my life. Anyways, I wish you were here now to give your approval on the different aspects of my life. My choice in clothes, my dance, colleges, classes, my boyfriend. Hah, I'm almost 100% sure you wouldn't approve of JD, or maybe you would've surprised me and approved of him afterall. Idk he comes on strong but after a while I think as long as he treated me right and I was happy (which I am) you would come to love him like I do. I wish you were still here to see me grow into the woman I'm becoming, and the mother and wife I'm yet to be, but (like natty said as well) I know for a fact that you're in heaven with God looking down on me and smiling. I see it everytime I look at our family. We all have those cheeks you know. haha. But I love you papa, and most of all I wish you were still here for me to tell you that. I love you and I always will. You will always have a special place in my heart papa, and I'll always be your sweetheart.
Love Always,
Your Grandaughter Mary Elizabeth
PS- I still have that frog you gave me that plays that stupid sweetheart song that you got me for Valentine's Day. and I still cry everytime I turn it on. :) I miss you. See you soon.
7.14.2010
Day 6: A Stranger
This is only 1 day late, although with the time it's technically 2.lol.
Dear Stranger,
I pass you on the street or in a car more often than I can count. I see you in all your different shapes and sizes, colors and patterns, yet I still neglect to say a word. I haven't the slightest idea who you are, but know that I wish the best for you and that God loves you. I wish I had the nerve to speak to you even if you have a terrible past. I long to know you, to help you, to tell you of the God I serve and love, but I can't bring myself to even look you in the eye. I'm sorry that I haven't the courage or the knowledge enough to teach you and enlighten you to know the true pure love that is Jesus Christ. I'm working on it, and maybe one day we can sit on the park bench and talk. You can tell me all about your past, and not be afraid that I'm going to expose you to the nearest gossip collumn, and I can help you work through your problems and past, and lead you into a bright and happy new future. And even though I know you'll never read this, it makes my soul happy with the new things to come. So dear stranger, may God bless you and watch out for you so that one day we will meet.
Sincerely Yours,
Mary
Dear Stranger,
I pass you on the street or in a car more often than I can count. I see you in all your different shapes and sizes, colors and patterns, yet I still neglect to say a word. I haven't the slightest idea who you are, but know that I wish the best for you and that God loves you. I wish I had the nerve to speak to you even if you have a terrible past. I long to know you, to help you, to tell you of the God I serve and love, but I can't bring myself to even look you in the eye. I'm sorry that I haven't the courage or the knowledge enough to teach you and enlighten you to know the true pure love that is Jesus Christ. I'm working on it, and maybe one day we can sit on the park bench and talk. You can tell me all about your past, and not be afraid that I'm going to expose you to the nearest gossip collumn, and I can help you work through your problems and past, and lead you into a bright and happy new future. And even though I know you'll never read this, it makes my soul happy with the new things to come. So dear stranger, may God bless you and watch out for you so that one day we will meet.
Sincerely Yours,
Mary
Day 5: Your Dreams
So it's midnight so technically this is 3 days late but i'm only counting it as two considering I started it just before midnight. haha.
To my dearest precious dreams,
I know we have long kept company, but do not fret I will make you come true. Often nights I'm so tired we don't spend much company together, but I know you still linger deep in my mind, waiting until the day that you come true. You my dear wedding dream, are not too far off, and you my college aspires, will be met sooner that you think. I have protected you so viciously and I will continue to strive for each and every one of you. Thank you for being so persistant in letting me know things ahead of time, as so many times you have. How you ever found out what was going to happen to me I will never know but I thank you for always being there to calm me and keep me happy and patient. I know with all of my heart that you all will come true in one way or another, and I cannot wait until you do; however, until then I will cherish you down to your last detail. (which make me impatient sometimes, because they make everything so real and I want it to be so bad.) I love you my precious dreams, and I promise you I will keep you safely tucked away until the day I release you to come true.
Love,
Mary
To my dearest precious dreams,
I know we have long kept company, but do not fret I will make you come true. Often nights I'm so tired we don't spend much company together, but I know you still linger deep in my mind, waiting until the day that you come true. You my dear wedding dream, are not too far off, and you my college aspires, will be met sooner that you think. I have protected you so viciously and I will continue to strive for each and every one of you. Thank you for being so persistant in letting me know things ahead of time, as so many times you have. How you ever found out what was going to happen to me I will never know but I thank you for always being there to calm me and keep me happy and patient. I know with all of my heart that you all will come true in one way or another, and I cannot wait until you do; however, until then I will cherish you down to your last detail. (which make me impatient sometimes, because they make everything so real and I want it to be so bad.) I love you my precious dreams, and I promise you I will keep you safely tucked away until the day I release you to come true.
Love,
Mary
7.09.2010
Day 2: Your Crush
Dear James Meriwether,
So we were just talking today about how you qualify for a couple of these, this being one of them, kind of. You are by far NOT a crush anymore, although you started out as just a crush after two and a half years and a multitude of wonderful memories it's more like love. I love you more than life itself, more than breath, more than chocolate, more than my own life. Although we tell each other constantly everyday that we love each other, I never feel like it's enough. I never thought I'd get lucky enough to get that all time fairytale that every girl dreams of, but I did. People may think we're crazy for saying we're going to marry each other some day, but let people think whatever they will. I know I'm going to marry you some day, and the more I think about it the more impatient I get. I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together. You have no idea how happy it makes me just thinking about waking up every morning next to you, cooking together, picking out a house, arranging furniture. Just the little things that everyone takes advantage of makes me excited to do together with you for us. You make me so happy. Anytime I'm having a bad day, you know just how to cheer me up and make me feel better. Even though sometimes we have our spots of trouble we always recover quick and better than ever. I love you so much words can't describe my feelings. You are my love, my life, my soul mate, my best friend, my secret keeper, my joy, keeper of my heart, my everything. I'm yours forever, no matter what happens, or what anyone says.
Love Always,
Mary.
So we were just talking today about how you qualify for a couple of these, this being one of them, kind of. You are by far NOT a crush anymore, although you started out as just a crush after two and a half years and a multitude of wonderful memories it's more like love. I love you more than life itself, more than breath, more than chocolate, more than my own life. Although we tell each other constantly everyday that we love each other, I never feel like it's enough. I never thought I'd get lucky enough to get that all time fairytale that every girl dreams of, but I did. People may think we're crazy for saying we're going to marry each other some day, but let people think whatever they will. I know I'm going to marry you some day, and the more I think about it the more impatient I get. I can't wait to spend the rest of our lives together. You have no idea how happy it makes me just thinking about waking up every morning next to you, cooking together, picking out a house, arranging furniture. Just the little things that everyone takes advantage of makes me excited to do together with you for us. You make me so happy. Anytime I'm having a bad day, you know just how to cheer me up and make me feel better. Even though sometimes we have our spots of trouble we always recover quick and better than ever. I love you so much words can't describe my feelings. You are my love, my life, my soul mate, my best friend, my secret keeper, my joy, keeper of my heart, my everything. I'm yours forever, no matter what happens, or what anyone says.
Love Always,
Mary.
7.08.2010
Day 1: Your Best Friend
While I have many friends, about whom I can talk to about just some things, I find that I have two friends I can talk to about everything so they both have a letter here. Let's do this.
Dear Nastassia,
Well, we've known each other since freshman year of high school when we were those giggly girls in science class, until now when we're still those giggly girls but we've matured so much into beautiful young ladies. We've had our ups and our downs as every friendship is bound to go through, but we've still been there for each other when on needed the other. I remember freshman year when you would tease me relentlessly about never having a boyfriend or being kissed, when I had a feeling you hadn't really been kissed much yourself. I remember sophmore year when we all went through the crushes, and I swore up and down I'd never have a chance with Jd (my future husband as we all know.lol) and told you that you were beautiful and could have anyone of your liking. Though sometimes it was hard when we would grow apart because of silly gossip, or our own pride, we always found a way back to being best friends again ang again. I believe our friendship will truely be one of those that distance cannot seperate and time cannot break, even though the years will come and go, we both know that we'll be friends until we're old and grey. When we'll have houses close to each other out in a little piece of country with big front porches with our grandchildren playing together. :) I'm so glad we met that day in gym class, your everlasting words will forever be in my heart, your writing will always surprise and motivate me to be better, and you yourself inspire me to be a better and stronger person each and every day of my life. I love you nastassia, my sister, my friend.
Your Forever Friend,
Mary
Dear Amanda,
Where to begin, where to begin? We've been best friends from the womb I swear. I have so many memories over my life and I can't seem to remember one where you weren't either there, or you were my best friend no matter who asked. :) I think the thing about our friendship that astounds me most is we never grow up.haha. No matter how serious the matter is whenever we get together we always have a great time doing the simplest of things. I would say that we've been through hard times together, but really we haven't. We're just two souls who have almost always gotten along, and never really had to deal with any of the drama of anything. Not saying that anything could bring us down, because we've both had our share of hard times, but I think that's why our friendship lasts so well, because we know what each other is going through and instead of talking it out we just diverge it to take our minds off of it and just have fun and make wonderful memories despite trying times. Then we hit high school! Just kidding.lol. I remember the time when we didn't spend alot of time together going to different schools and such, but even after those years of not hanging out every other day or weekend, we just struck up conversation as if it had just been a few days since we had seen each other. That is one of the things I truely love about us. No matter how long we're apart it only takes a matter of minutes for us to be closer that sisters again. You've been there for me despite my bad moods and hard times, as well as I have been for you. I'm highly favored and blessed to have you as a best friend. You are one of the best best friends ever, you are my sister, and my true friend. I love you amanda! :)
Love,
Mary
Dear Nastassia,
Well, we've known each other since freshman year of high school when we were those giggly girls in science class, until now when we're still those giggly girls but we've matured so much into beautiful young ladies. We've had our ups and our downs as every friendship is bound to go through, but we've still been there for each other when on needed the other. I remember freshman year when you would tease me relentlessly about never having a boyfriend or being kissed, when I had a feeling you hadn't really been kissed much yourself. I remember sophmore year when we all went through the crushes, and I swore up and down I'd never have a chance with Jd (my future husband as we all know.lol) and told you that you were beautiful and could have anyone of your liking. Though sometimes it was hard when we would grow apart because of silly gossip, or our own pride, we always found a way back to being best friends again ang again. I believe our friendship will truely be one of those that distance cannot seperate and time cannot break, even though the years will come and go, we both know that we'll be friends until we're old and grey. When we'll have houses close to each other out in a little piece of country with big front porches with our grandchildren playing together. :) I'm so glad we met that day in gym class, your everlasting words will forever be in my heart, your writing will always surprise and motivate me to be better, and you yourself inspire me to be a better and stronger person each and every day of my life. I love you nastassia, my sister, my friend.
Your Forever Friend,
Mary
Dear Amanda,
Where to begin, where to begin? We've been best friends from the womb I swear. I have so many memories over my life and I can't seem to remember one where you weren't either there, or you were my best friend no matter who asked. :) I think the thing about our friendship that astounds me most is we never grow up.haha. No matter how serious the matter is whenever we get together we always have a great time doing the simplest of things. I would say that we've been through hard times together, but really we haven't. We're just two souls who have almost always gotten along, and never really had to deal with any of the drama of anything. Not saying that anything could bring us down, because we've both had our share of hard times, but I think that's why our friendship lasts so well, because we know what each other is going through and instead of talking it out we just diverge it to take our minds off of it and just have fun and make wonderful memories despite trying times. Then we hit high school! Just kidding.lol. I remember the time when we didn't spend alot of time together going to different schools and such, but even after those years of not hanging out every other day or weekend, we just struck up conversation as if it had just been a few days since we had seen each other. That is one of the things I truely love about us. No matter how long we're apart it only takes a matter of minutes for us to be closer that sisters again. You've been there for me despite my bad moods and hard times, as well as I have been for you. I'm highly favored and blessed to have you as a best friend. You are one of the best best friends ever, you are my sister, and my true friend. I love you amanda! :)
Love,
Mary
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